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Friday, 18 June 2021

She smashed a glass

Geraldine's story


Sophie was a violonist ever since a little girl.  She loved the melancholic sound of her instrument and when her parents, both pianists, started to show her how to play,  she complied, but kept on about the sound the violin made and how it made her shiver each time she heard one.

-       I love the music you play, but I really would prefer playing the violin : you see, you can hold it like a baby or a doll, or a cat and it feels so much closer to me than our huge piano that I find much more intimidating….

 

So, both her  parents were open to her feelings and wishes and found Joseph, a very good music teacher to start her with the violin.

 

Joseph, a tall fellow with blue eyes and dark hair that he wore down to his shoulders, had a very romantic look :  he would start playing, steady on both his feet, and ten seconds later, the whole body would be swaying, his eyes would close, and he seemed to be in a completely other world where he didn’t belong any more and submerged by the emotion of the music emerging from his bow.

 

Sophie was immediately enthralled by him and his teaching.  On the whole, she wasn’t a very good learner at school for example.  She would easily learn things she found interesting or she thought might be useful for her future, but whatever seemed off-putting didn’t really interest her or get her to make the effort to explore.

 

But, as soon as she started her violin lessons with Joseph, everything became wonderful :  her life changed into a warmer colour, her emotions became so strong, her face would illuminate like a candle or tears would pop up to her eye lashes. She experienced something so new to her and started loving living every day.  She would grab her violin whenever she had a spare moment and get those notes right, the sound clearer and her bow would run on the violin trying to get the purest possible sound.

 

Joseph, now, came twice a week so as to intensify the learning.  By the end of the first year, she was able to perform Vivaldi’s “Four Seasons” with vivacity and feeling.  As she was progressing so much, Joseph suggested she joined the very well known Calicot Orchestra in which he was “first violin”.  Sophie was so happy, learning how to adjust her performance with the others, waiting for the conductor to give her the indication when to start, when to play louder, when to make her instrument softer, when to give an attack etc…  This was a whole new experience again for her and she just did and gave her very best at it.

 

But, somehow, although she was doing so well, she had a feeling something started to go wrong!  What could it be? She couldn’t really spot what was going on, but she felt much less secure than when she was just learning with Joseph.  One day, she opened up to him on the subject and he reassured her : “being part of an Orchestra was the finality of music… Playing together, with others.  Maybe that step was a bit big for her to take, but it was where she was going”.

 

Every year, around Christmas or New Year, the Calicot Orchestra would give a live concert in town.  This year, Sophie would be playing for the first time with the Orchestra.  She had practiced, and practiced and practiced Shubert’s Arpeggione sonata.

 

When this special Evening was there at last, all the musicians were dressed in black and white : black dresses for the ladies and black costumes for the men with white shirts and a black bow-tie.  Her auburn hair was casually lifted in a loose “chignon” , her blue eyes underlined with a shade of green make-up and her lips redrawn with some red vivid lipstick.  She looked and felt gorgeous….

Joseph was, of course, the most handsome musician and being 1st violin, strongly attracted the public’s attention.

 

The concert which took place in the city’s town hall, all decorated with a huge Christmas tree and light garlands, was very good.  All the musicians played with such intensity and the public gave large applauses after each movement.  The cheers were so strong that, at the end, they had to give 3 more pieces in order to satisfy the spectators. Joseph had to come forward and bow for almost 10 minutes and got so many applauses that the people’s hands must have been all red….

 

At the end of year concert,  the routine had always been to offer Champagne to the public, with a little tradition : as in Fellini’s film “E la Nave va”,  the crystal flutes were filled at different levels with the champagne and Joseph, the 1st violin, played a Christmas Carrol hitting them gently with a small spoon  to get the purest possible sound.  The whole assistance was enthralled and a very beautiful young woman came up to him with a “bouquet”, kissing him on both cheeks. Once more, another thunderous applause for the hero of the evening.

 

What was going on in Sophie’s mind at that moment, nobody could guess, but…. She completely lost control, dashed to the table where the champagne flutes were standing, picked one up, lifted it in front of Joseph and the young women screaming “cheers”, and then   “she smashed the glass”!

 

Silence!  Complete silence followed her gesture.  Then a murmur started in the crowd, while Sophie’s parents ran towards their daughter to take her away.  And she left the first and last concert she ever gave with the Calicot Orchestra between her parents holding her with all their love and wondering what on earth had so deeply upset their child.

 


 

 

 

 Sarah's story

 

And she smashed the glass  2 (Deconfinement Day)
(20.05-08.06.2021)

She didn’t want to go.
“It’ll be bedlam,” she said.  “It won’t be fun at all.”
But he wanted to go, absolutely had to.  “It’s been, what? months, over half a year since we could go out to a café or a restaurant.  I’m not missing this.  If we go early we’ll get a place.”
So they went early.  But then so had everyone else.  It was as if half Paris was there, and the other half still coming.  There was much pushing and shoving, bitter words on the lines of “we were here first!” and “are you mad, it was us!” and so forth, and some punches were exchanged.  But they got a table.  Or rather the corners of half a table, the other couple a bare metre away at the other end of the small rectangle.
Then they had to wait, because of course one had to be served.  There was no getting up and going inside to order for oneself.
“Couldn’t they have got on a few more waiters for the occasion?  They must have known there’d be a turn-out like this.”
“It’s not like there aren’t people out looking for jobs,” agreed the man of the other couple.  Then the two of them got going on the present situation and the obvious solutions, while the two women exchanged helpless looks.  Meanwhile other couples and threesomes and foursomes were jostling at the edges of the terrace.  
“They really ought to have hired somebody else.”
“Ha, looks as if they did.”
Indeed, the boy who finally showed up at their table was clearly a rookie.  He was flustered already.  They might have been his first customers ever.  They placed their orders and, looking quite uncertain, he went off.  The men drummed their fingers on the table and the women tried to relax.  The air rustled with the milling of impatient feet, the murmuring of would-be celebrators waiting for a table of their own.  
Finally the waiter brought two glasses of lager, but he wasn’t sure which couple to give it to.  
“We ordered a lager and a cider,” he said.  “It must be theirs.”
“We ordered a lager and a glass of white,” they said.  The waiter looked distressed.
“Just give us the two beers now and then bring the cider and the wine.”
But the waiter had already made out his bill.  “Who’s to pay then?” he asked.
“I’ll take the other lager,” she said, and he put the order down in front of them.
“So now it’s a cider and a wine?”
“’No, a lager and a wine.”
“Sorry?”  The boy was looking confused, and the people at the edges of the terrace were getting boisterous.  She was originally from the country and had often noted that the Parisians could be pushy, but she had never known them to be so rude as this.  
“A lager and a wine,” one of them called, “and get a move on, there’s a queue here!”
The waiter left and the two of them shrugged, smiled in commiseration at the other couple and clinked their glasses.  She took a sip, and realized that she really didn’t like beer.  “Oh, crumb,” she said.
“Still sulking?” he asked.
“Sulking?  I never sulk.  I just knew it would be like this.”
“Like what?  This is great!”
Then the waiter came back with a cider and a beer.  The woman of the other couple said, “I didn’t order cider!  She did.”
The waiter looked uncertainly at her, and she looked longingly back at the glass of cider.
“Hey!  You’re not thinking of taking the cider too?  You’ve got your lager now.”  He always had been a penny-pincher.
“But I hate beer!”
“Why didn’t you say so before, then?”
“I didn’t order beer.”
Heckling began to come from the crowd at the edge of the terrace.  “Make up your mind, Madame.  There are people waiting!”
And then she smashed the glass.  
The poor waiter got the worst of it, because he had to clean it all up.  There was more bad feeling because of having to pay for the broken glass, and much good-natured jeering from the crowd as they put on their masks and left, after he downed his beer in record time.  Two other couples fought to take their place.
“Well, now, that was a pleasant outing, wasn’t it?” she said sarcastically as they got into their car.  But he had recovered his good humour.  
“I wouldn’t have missed it for anything,” he said.  “Six months without going out for a meal or a drink!  Good times are here again.”
She raised her eyebrows slightly, as she buckled herself into her seat.  There was no point in replying.

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Paula's contribution



 

 

Being on the move again felt so good. Finally, after a year of pandemic-restricted movement — or no movement at all — they were traveling again. And what an ambitious plan it was: a flight from Paris to the States, and then six more flights, five states, 21 days. Those three weeks were chock full of activity: seeing family and friends, breakfast dates, lunch dates, dates for cocktails, dates for dinner … but also long talks, long walks, always on the move. As the days passed in a whirlwind of activity, they became more and more exhausted at the pace. But they were determined to pack as much into those three weeks as possible.

 

The final flight, back to Paris, like the other six flights on the trip, was on time, smooth and uneventful. All their bags spun merrily toward them on the luggage carousel.  There was no line at passport control and customs. Relieved, they made their way to the door of Terminal 2E, looking for the friend who had promised to pick them up and drive them the four hours home to Flavigny.

 

Finally, their luck ran out. She wasn’t there. She had mixed up the dates.

 

She promised to set off immediately for Paris, but the prospect of a four-hour wait after eight hours across the Atlantic, followed by more hours on the road was just too much for the weary travelers. Trains weren’t running, so their best option was to rent a car and set off on the autoroute, fueled by coffee and an intense desire to just get home.

 

And now, five days later, she still felt like she just couldn’t catch up on her sleep. She had so much still to do: She had already delivered the mule saddle she had brought across the ocean, but she still needed to unpack their clothes and toiletries, sort through all of the American products they had hauled back with them, do laundry, get to the grocery store to restock the frigo, tend to the neglected garden — and on top of all that, there was the appointment at the prefecture in Dijon, two days after arriving home, to renew their French residency permits. It felt like there was no end to the weariness. As she relaxed late one afternoon with a glass of champagne at a neighbor’s house, her friend Sarah reminded her that the writing group was meeting in a few days, and had she written her story? She could feel her eyes glazing over as a wave of fatigue engulfed her. She hadn’t given it a thought; there was no room in her brain for the creative energy necessary to craft a story.  Oh, well, she sighed to herself. They’ll understand.

 

The next afternoon, as she continued to unpack the remaining bags, she longed to lie down for a short nap. The writing group assignment was weighing heavily on her mind. After all, the group had agreed to change their meeting date, just so she could be there after her trip. As she unzipped one stuffed case, a pair of balled-up socks rolled under the daybed in the bedroom. When she bent down to retrieve them, she saw, out of the corner of her eye, a little alcove cut into the stone wall, just above the floorboards. Curious, she thought. That was never there before. She wriggled under the couch to get closer, and saw that the alcove was covered with glass, and there was a tiny hammer affixed to the front of the glass. She peered inside the alcove to see a largish envelope with these words printed on it: IN CASE OF EMERGENCY, ONE STORY FOR YOUR WRITING GROUP.

 

What did she have to lose? She picked up the tiny hammer, and then she smashed the glass.

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 From Jackie



___Monday 9th   : I sat at my computer on a beautiful June morning with my early morning lemon juice and smoking my first cigarette of the day – .  

As I typed away on my keyboard, the table trembled and the a hefty glass ashtray fell off the desk and onto the floor.  Luckily it didn’t break but I was perturbed as to how this had happened.

My dogs who were asleep in their beds at the time suddenly started to growl and Daisy’s hair stood up on the back of her neck.     I  don’t have a cat – the window was shut,  door locked so there were no drafts and I spent the rest of the day trying to figure out how an ordinary old ashtray could just jump off a table with no warning.    Later that week another extraordinary thing happened. 

I was making dinner, alone in the house and just served myself some white wine in a beautiful cut glass which I had found in a cupboard containing forgotten crystal ornaments when I bought the house.   I  went to answer the phone and came back to find my drink spilled all over the floor and the glass overturned on the table.   This time I felt quite shocked and understandably scared.  The house was in a row attached houses in a quiet London street ;…..

Also my set of keys went lost from the place where they always live.  A few weeks of searching high and low, under tables, in drawers and pockets of coats and upstairs and downstairs;  they were nowhere to be found.  A month went by and suddenly there they were stuffed in the corner of the cupboard where I had found the forgotten objects.

 

I began to think about a ghost or worse still a poltergeist but there was definitely some supernatural activity going on.  So I did some research and it seems that ghosts just appear and don’t do much harm but poltergeists actually are violent and move things and break them.  Who was trying to contact me from the other side of the spirit world?  

As I said before, when I had bought the house there were some precious pieces of glass in a cupboard which naturally I kept and used.  I learnt that many years ago the dried out body of a woman had been found under the stairs in mysterious circumstances with the stem of a brandy glass stuck in her jugular vein.

There is a myth that glass symbolizes the separation between the physical and the spiritual plains –Heaven and Earth — and glass breaking is the spiritual side trying to communicate or get our attention.

 

 The only way to cure the actions of this thing/person/object would be to surprise them at their own game.  Acknowledge their presence.     So one evening as I was watching television –  the curtains in my living room started to move flapping about and even lifting up off the floor.     Again, There was no window or door open and no explanation as to why this was happening.   Again the dogs growled and their hair rose  Both  showing their teeth looking towards the curtains ears back they scampered off to the kitchen. 

   I seized the largest heaviest glass vase ready to hit the thing or something with it – all was quiet again so I didn’t  ….the same thing a few nights later.   This time my coffee table started to tremble and the coffee cups were rattling and shaking … again I grabbed the vase and just when the table started to shake most violently I seized it and smashed the glass onto the table. 

Silence.

Had it worked? Had I killed the thing that was invading my house and life ?  Rendezvous in a few weeks time when I’ll let you know.

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Annemarie's story


The Ballad of Bad-tempered Alice.

 

Alice grew up in  Kew Gardens conservatory;

She hated the plants, she hated the glass...and using the lavatory

...and she smashed the glass.

 

She missed an appointment to have her hair cropped

She looked at her watch and found it had stopped..

...and she smashed it’s glass

 

She went to the beautician, then gazed in the glass -

Her make-overed face looked more like her arse [1] 

...so she smashed the glass.

 

She longed to go sailing so checked the barometer,

The pressure was low and not getting better,

...and she smashed the glass.

 

She worked in a lab with thousands of germs in tiny glass vials

When she suddenly jumped with a painful attack of pitiful piles

...and she smashed the glass.

 

She went to a restaurant for Michelin starred food;

The wine, it was corked and the waiter was rude..

...so she smashed the glass.

 

She was given some perfume in a beautiful bottle

But the odour was awful and smelt of a brothel.

...then she smashed the glass.

 

She worked as a nurse  injecting some testicles

But her vision was blurred due to her spectacles.

...and she smashed the glass.

 

Taking her temperature tucked under her tongue

She choked on some pieces which went down to her lung.

...she’d bitten the glass.

 

She swung from the ceiling on a glass chandelier;

The fixing was feeble, the wire was weak and she fell on her rear.

...she'd shattered the glass.

 

She caught sight of her husband through a bow-fronted window

Having a breath-taking time with old Henry’s widow.

...so she smashed the glass.

 

Then bad-tempered Alice went skating on ice

Which glistened and gleamed like shiny white glass;

It suddenly shattered and swallowed her twice,

Through the deep water, then into the muddy morass.

 





Wednesday, 5 May 2021

Over the hill

 Over the hill

 

Sarah's contribution:

When is a woman past her prime?  In the twelfth century, Eleanor of Acquitaine was married and Queen of France at 15, released from her tumultuous marriage at age 20 after having travelled with the Crusaders as far as Jerusalem, remarried and Queen Consort of England at age 22, separated and head of an independent court in Poitiers at the age of 36, when she finally considered herself middle-aged.  This did not stop her assisting her young sons in a revolt against their father, which caused her husband Henry II to send her into house arrest for the next 16 years, until his death, and three years after that she ruled England as Regent while her son Richard was off at the Crusades, raising his ransom and negotiating his release from captivity when he was imprisoned by the Holy Roman Emperor on his way back.  After this son’s death she served her other son John, now king, as diplomat at the age of nearly 80.
In the fifteenth century, Margaret of Austria, also known as Marguerite de Bourgogne, was betrothed at the age of 3 to the Dauphin of France but jilted by him at the tender age of 11.  No matter: at 16 she had married the heir to the throne of Spain, Juan, Prince of Asturias, although their passionate union lasted only six months before he suddenly died of a fever: at 20 she married the Duke of Savoy, another lively love-match but one where she also showed her ability to govern their domaines because her husband was not interested.  This union too was cut short when Philibert died suddenly less than three years later.  At 23 she thought her life was over and threw herself out of a window, but survived and went on to become Governor-General of the Netherlands, energetic in the interests of her nephew the Holy Roman Emperor Charles V, until her death at the age of 50.
In the sixteenth century, Mary Stuart, Queen of Scotland at the age of six days, married to the Dauphin of France at 16, Queen Consort of France at 17, widowed at not yet 18, remarried and a mother at 23, widowed once more, remarried and arrested after an uprising, not yet 25, did see her life go downhill from then on.  Kept a virtual prisoner by her cousin Elizabeth for almost 19 years, though not without passionate supporters, she finished on the scaffold by order of Elizabeth and was dead at the age of 44.  Elizabeth, of course went on to be the world’s most powerful monarch until the age of almost 70.  Let’s not even talk about Elizabeth II.
And yet.  In the twentieth century, when I first came to France, they were still celebrating St Catherine’s day in offices and other workplaces: any woman of 25 who not yet found a husband was fêted with cakes and flowers, given an elaborately decorated hat and reminded that she had better get busy as time was running out.  When I was 35 I asked a neighbour if  she could join the school parents’ committee and she apologised, saying she was “too old and tired”; she was my age.
And in the US there began to appear here and there notices on the grass in front of middle-class houses, with balloon decorations and general signs of festivity, evidence that the woman of the house had reached the age of forty and was thus about to commence the downward path into ignominy and obscurity.
“Over the hill”.   Who is to say when a woman is past her prime?  Eleanor of Aquitaine presumably thought she was well past her youth when she went to Poitiers, but she continued a very active life, without her husbands, for twice as long after that.  Margaret of Austria had finished her love life at 23 but her political life was just beginning, again more than doubling that age.  Mary Stuart, though her happiness was over before she was 25, continued fighting until the end, was never without devoted admirers and is generally considered to have died tragically young.  Most young Frenchwomen today are unmarried at 26, and although my teaching colleagues used to speak rather apologetically of themselves as “quadras”, most 40-50-year-olds nowadays still look and act young and dynamic, and have preserved their looks.  Most educated women don’t begin to feel old until they are at least 70 or even 80.  So I ask again, “over the hill” is 23?  35?  80? 
For my part, I hope, when I reach 120, to be able to adopt the remark of Jeanne Calment at that age:
“I’m actually still a young girl.  It’s just that I haven’t looked so good for the past seventy years.”
 

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From Geraldine:


Over the hill

Just standing still

Is this graceful deer

I daren’t get to near

Not to cause him fear.

A noise whistles at my ear

And before I can hear

The moan of the deer

The sight disappears.

 

The moon is high

In the sky

The stars twinkle

The Milky Way shines

And under it’s gleam

The last breath of a deer fades away.

 

As the sun rises

The next morning,

A cloud of birds of prey

Swoop down for a copious banquet.

 

And a few hours later

All is clear.


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 Jackie's contribution


Over the hill

 

The last red coals of the family fire glowed in the now fading daylight.   Sanja adjusted the cooking pot over the flames to boil water for a last nightcap.    

 

The sun, bright as a pomegranate fruit in the African sky collapsed over the hill leaving an imprint like a dark red birthmark in the sky.

 

His two sisters and mother were already asleep in their hut having been up working in the fields since before dawn:  he reached out to gently pull a cover over his fathers sleeping body as he lay lifeless with fatigue on his rush mat in the dwindling warmth.

 

As nightfall fell the hills became alive;  Birds croaked invitations to play in the dusk.  A lion roared its hunger and the slight breeze brought a whiff  of eucalyptus and lemongrass.

 

      Sanja was kept awake by his constant dream that hung like a dark cloud over his head.   Fantasizing of the images torn from a crumpled  magazine he had found one day – a rainbow ending in a pot of gold and pictures of buildings, streets , pretty girls and shoes.

 

He needed to get away from his village and  find out what was at the end of this rainbow that appeared over the hill after the rains.  He was frustrated with everyday life, of hauling water, feeding the animals, digging dust and watching his family go hungry.

 

 None of his relatives had ever traveled out of the circle where he lived.    They buckled down to their work in the fields every day perfectly happy to be singing and making hay – feeding the animals and not wondering too much about their future.   Sanja though had other thoughts – he wanted more out of life.    At 15 now it was time for him to become a man and it seemed to him that he had to go somewhere else which could only be better than what he had here.   The rainbow was the answer.

Looking over at the hill he started to think about what he would do when he got there how he would find the pot of gold – hoping it wouldn’t be too heavy to carry home

He heard the nighttime warbler  – it seemed to him he was screaming at him go go on – go over the hill to the city change your life     

 

It took many many days of walking through the undergrowth – brambles scratched his legs, sharp stones cut into his feet and with every step shredded flesh left an imprint of his own blood a buzz of flies and mosquitos hovered constantly.

 He encountered snakes and spiders hanging from the tangled vines.   Hid from tracks of a large tiger.   Drank dew from leaves and cut coconuts for breakfast. 

 

Up and up he went –surprised that the rainbow was further away that his eye had seen  –it had looked so close from his campfire.    Finally after 2 weeks of walking he reached the top and looked around for the arc of colours the rainbow had produced  – it had disappeared.  

 

Looking back over the way he had come – he saw his village as a tiny tiny spot in the middle of the jungle – a clearing with thatched huts where he could just make out his family and other villagers going about their everyday business in the glistening sun.     Suddenly it dawned on him that the pot of gold was there where he had come from, his roots, family, friends, a life in the village that would remain his forever.   

 

He vowed to go back when the time was right;   but at this moment in time he put out his thumb and hitched a lift to the City and a new chapter in his life 

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Annemarie's story

 

Over the Hill

From the age of eleven my sister and I spent nearly all our school holidays  with an ancient aunt and an even more ancient great grandmother and our biggest treat was a visit, maybe two, to the cinema. We loved the adventure films -  Mysterious Island, Swiss Family Robinson,The Moonspinners , In Search of the Castaways.  There would be earthquakes, children tumbling down glaciers and in the last film the children hurtle down dangerous waters to emerge out of a hill. Over the hill was a magical land, sometimes a locked-in world with dinosaurs and incredible plants.

 I think I still anticipate something wonderful beyond  my hills when I approach one, especially on walks, although it's usually a view I look forward to. I was truly rewarded many years ago on our return from the South of France.

We had decided to detour so we could experience the new Millau bridge but en route I noticed one of those ubiquitous brown signs with the words “Cirque de Navacelles.”  Having no idea what this was I persuaded a reluctant husband to detour yet further - he hates stopping if I see an intriguing shop and always says “ Can't stop now, there's a car right behind me.” I wonder how many exciting things I’ve missed! But this time he agreed and on and on we drove with no respite from the blazing sun, through endless scrubland, and he becoming ever more irritable.

“We've driven for half an hour and all we see are those flipping signs. I think I’ll turn round.”

“No, let's just go another five minutes as we have come so far already. I’m sure we must be there soon.”  Five minutes later: “It must be over that hill, let's carry on a little  longer.”

Ten minutes later I’m saying “I'll count to 100 and if there’s nothing we'll turn around. »

It must have been forty-five minutes since seeing the original sign and after winding ever upwards this somewhat bleak and vast hill  that we arrived in a deserted carpark; nothing to see but sky and bare rough terrain. I leapt out of the car and rushed to the edge of the carpark.

 I was immediately transported into one of my childhood films .The hill around which we had zig-zagged to reach the top was in fact a gorge  carved out of the limestone plateau by two rivers. I gazed down at this hidden canyon which resembled a great green amphitheatre. The steep Rocky sides were scrub-covered descending down deep to flat plateau in the middle of which was  pointy,  three-sided 'pyramid' hill wearing a narrow skirt  of green fields;  nestled alongside was a tiny hamlet. It was like looking down the wrong end of a telescope.

Of course we had to go ‘over’ the hill. Sadly we didn't go sliding down on a glacier or emerge halfway down on a torrential river but took the road instead. It was poorly maintained and barely wide enough for one vehicle. It was a somewhat dangerous but exhilarating drive down a road  clinging to the cliff side as it weaved its winding way into the valley,

The hamlet consisted of some few old stone houses; the scent of boxwood, juniper and cedar permeated the air.  The river Vis appeared from its underground journey gushing from the cliff side beside an old mill into a large basin where it probably delved even deeper, right down to Hades I imagine.

We were lucky enough to have a coffee and something to eat in a cafe/B and B. ( more  than we find in many of our ramblings around French villages!). My anticipation of something special over the hill was fully justified and at the time we thought we would one day stay in the BandB but on reflection the enjoyment was in the quite first unexpected, surprising discovery.

The intoxicating scents of the scrubland, Holm oaks, boxwoods, junipers and cedars are almost overwhelming.


 

Read the poem through ...then read it again starting with the bottom line upwards!

 

Over the Hill

I’m over the hill

So don't keep telling me

 I’m not fat and wrinkly

Because to be truly honest

 I hate what I see

I'm really not going to kid myself by saying

It's what's inside that matters.

I keep telling myself over and over

That I'm a useless person and nobody wants me

You can say nothing to make me believe

 I still deserve compliments and love

Because whatever you say,

I'm not good enough to be loved

I cannot believe that

 Looks and youth are still on my side,

For when I gaze in the mirror I always say to myself

Am I really over the hill?


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Monday, 1 March 2021

The cobweb

 THE COBWEB

 

Sarah's story

The cobweb… 4 

(16.02.2021)

 

It was an old house, and full of dim corners where spiders might make their home.  James was near-sighted and hardly bothered about the state of the house so long as it was reasonably clean and meals were on time and savoury.  He even helped with the peeling and the washing-up, but after that his interest in domestic affairs shrivelled.  Joanna herself was preoccupied with her garden and her cooking and her reading club, and took the house with equal complacency; as she said herself, she had never been “house-proud”.  Their friends were easy-going, not acquaintances that it was necessary to impress, and they had no children.

But Joanna’s sister had, and when one day they came to visit, her son Will, coming into the upstairs corridor, let out a shriek.  “A spider!” he screamed and would not budge.  He was eight.

Joanna had a look.  “I don’t see one,” she said finally.

“There, there!” 

Joanna inspected the corner again and said, “There’s no spider there.  It’s only a web.”

But he still would not advance.  Her sister’s mother-in-law had accompanied them, and she came up the stairs as well. 

“That’s easily enough settled,” she said and grasped a broomstick which Joanna, hastily sweeping before their arrival, had not put back in its closet.  With one expert move she twirled the cobweb round the broom handle and whisked it away.  She looked inquiringly, not to say imperiously, at Joanna, who indicated a waste bin nearby, but the woman making no move herself, Joanna took the broom and disposed of the offending article, and they were all able to proceed to the guest bedroom they had been headed for.  The mother-in-law inspected it briefly, and, satisfied, set down her things. 

“If you wouldn’t mind giving me that broom again, Joanne” she said, however, and proceeded to perfect the house-keeping.  Joanna smiled and left her to it.

Joanna’s sister and husband and two children were to take the back bedroom , which was very large, and once this was inspected and approved, they moved their things in as well.  The mother-in-law came in to take care of the finishing touches, and then she gave the broom back to Joanna.

They had a nice lunch, and a walk down the lane, and a tour of the garden before tea, and finally an evening of parlour games, and everyone agreed that life in the country was very pleasant indeed.

“We do miss the cinema a little,” said Joanna, “now that the local one has closed down.”

The mother-in-law beamed benevolently.  “One can’t have everything.”

The next morning went well enough, as most of them lay in, and the mother-in-law, who was not a late sleeper, busied herself with a broom and a duster, and seemed quite pleased with herself.  They went out for lunch and visited a model village and came home for tea , which was a pleasant and restful meal except for the presence of a few bothersome flies.   The next morning was much the same, and then Joanna and her sister got another nice lunch ready for the crowd and they all sat down.

“My, my!” said the mother-in-law, “you do have a great number of flies in the house!”  She shooed them away with her napkin.

“Humph,” said James, absently, “we didn’t use to have so many.”

“It is the country, you know,” said Joanna.  Then she added, “But James is right.  We don’t usually have so many.”

“You’re not suggesting we brought them?” asked the mother-in-law, and Joanna and James assured her, smiling, that such a thought could not have been further from their minds.  But the flies were very bothersome.

“I think I’ve heard,” said Joanna after a moment, “that spiders are good for that.  They eat the flies, you know, that’s what their webs are for, to catch them.”

“Drat these flies!” said the mother-in-law again, and switched her napkin left and right.  She looked as if her favourable opinion of the country was losing its brilliance.

“They eat flies?” asked Janey, Will’s sister.  “How disgusting!”

“Someone might think it disgusting that you eat chicken,” said James mildly.

“Shall we not have an entomology lesson during lunch?” suggested the brother-in-law, brushing a fly from the side of his plate.

“And don’t bother Janey with the views of vegetarians,” said Joanna’s sister.

“Is there nothing you can do, Joanne,” asked the mother-in-law, swatting furiously, “to control these insects?  I really cannot eat my lunch!”

Joanna smiled again, though her smiles were becoming forced, and she sighed.  “One can’t have everything,” she said.  Now what did that have to do with the situation, thought her guests.  But she was right.


Annemarie's contribution:

 

The water is a murky green, the sun sprinkling diamond spots on the surface of the pond as I struggle to climb up the reed. I've been sitting in the shallow water near the margins of this pond basking in the warmer water for some time and occasionally popping my head out to learn to breathe the air.

Today is the the day I will finally emerge as an adult. I cling  onto the knobbly green reed and I feel the warmth of the sun rays. My head, my thorax, legs and wings feel tight and constrained until they struggle  out of my  larval coat. Damp and wobbly I wait until my legs firm up and feel strong; cra-a-ack - what's happening? Oh, it's my external skeleton splitting open and my trapped abdomen is released like an extending telescope.I am still weak so I  wait while my wings spread and my abdomen firms up. Around me I can see other dragon flies going through the same body-hugging, body-freeing process. I gaze in wonder at their iridescent green wings glinting in the sun and watch as they gingerly flutter them and their long bodies dip up and down.  

It's my first day out of the water and a new set of dangers lie in wait as I metamorphose from aquatic larva  to  aerial dragon-fly. I lift off but my maiden flight is woefully weak and I land bumpily in the grass, watched by a prowling blackbird. One glimpse of my shimmering emerald wings and I will be dinner for her fledglings. Panic seizes me as I struggle to free myself from the matted grass; I lurk among the tall green blades, camouflaged but wary of the mornings dewdrops heavy on my fragile wings. With a final effort I’m up at last and I can fly -  straight up, straight down; I whirl about, I hover, I fly in jet straight lines, then swivel round - I'm a helicopter, I’m a robot, I’m swooping up in the air and feel the sun on my bulging eyes.

  These aeronautics trigger my  hunger. No more swimming after my food for now I must catch it mid-flight. But beware - malevolence crackles in the air. My big round dragon fly eyes catch sight of the slightest movement. There's the blackbird strutting along the low branch in the nearby hornbeam hedge, studying me surreptitiously. I soar straight up , grabbing a small fly with my feet and eat it while I fly. This is so easy; I weave this way and that following a misty stream of midges, snapping them up with my feet and devouring them.  I stop suddenly, my four  gossamer wings whirring, and veer off in pursuit of a fat shiny bluebottle. The warm sunshine switches off suddenly as I fly into a barn and as I clasp my quarry I’m caught in an insubstantial, sticky mesh of diaphanous thread. I bounce back but cannot extricate myself from this sticky, suffocating web, the bluebottle still clutched in my feet. I twist and turn, my frail, lacy wings wreathed in spun silk;  staring at me from the centre of the cobweb is a rapacious black spider, crouching patiently, expectantly on her springy, vibrating bed while I struggle, while I exhaust myself in the now cocooning filaments. My eyes are shrouded by the mesh of threads and from faraway I hear the persistent call of the blackbird  getting louder and louder. I’m being held, shaken... Hot and sweaty I slowly  open my eyes, and emerging from a tangle of sheet I see a familiar face bent over me.

“Wake up! Wake up! Your alarm has gone off and you've got your exam today.”

 

 

 

Geraldine's story


 

It was this dream that kept coming back to Fiona, but it was blurred, and shapeless, but still there.

It was somewhere in Gabrielle’s house (her grandmother),who would be reading her a story she would listen to, her eyes ferreting around the room where they would be sitting next to the open fire place.

From floor to ceilling, around the 4 walls, Fiona’s eyes would be looking at everything around her : the old grey polished stones on the ground, the fireplace with it’s stone shining mantelpiece and  the burning logs, the walls covered with shelves full of books, all types, all colours and all different sizes.

Here and there, there would be an object like a vase, or a stone, or a picture, or a statuette which had, of course, a story to tell.  Then a few boxes, either filled with games like chess or snakes and ladders, or big or small puzzles, a solitaire game with the red, yellow, black, white, blue and green pions  and the odd game of cards.  A few sepia photos would be stuck here and there with old faces that were usually looked into to find a resemblance with someone still alive in the family.

Then her eyes would fall on the ceiling trying to track the flyes, mosquitos or spiders settled along the wooden beams.  But when they would encounter the various cobwebs comfortably set up there, she would starts shivering for she was just scared to death by the spiders, above all the big ones.

Yes, she had tried to get Gabrielle to get rid of them or to kill them like lots of people in town, or at school or in public places would have done.  But no way, Gabrielle explained over and over again :

-       Now look sweetheart, these little arachnids are completely harmless and extremely useful, as they love feeding themselves with flyes, small insects, ants, mosquitos and they keep them out of the way.  You see, the animal world knows how to behave and regulates by itself. When man interferes, he destabilizes the whole system.

Of course, Fiona knew her grandmother was right, but she still couldn’t help hating looking up there, and nevertheless peeping an eye at the ceiling. Brrrr…..

Anyway, she grew up, and as she  did so, saw her Granny less and less often, as she had many activities in and out of school, College, sport and music.

She then became a Mum too and loved spending time with her children, helping them grow up, playing with them, giving them a hand with their schoolwork, developing their artistic skills, helping them discover which sport they liked and were best qualified for, and all these everyday natural things one does daily with children : singing, cooking, sewing, knitting etc.. 

And from time to time, this blurred dream would haunt her again, and then disappear.

So, the day her Mum disappeared for ever, when the coffin went down in the grave, at the cemetery, everything became clear as if it had been yesterday !  There it was, she could at last catch her timeless dream !

She remembered her own Mum with red swollen eyes, her Dad very pale but making this huge effort to show how a Man behaves when he is deeply touched by something,  and herself asking them :

« Please Mum, please Dad, can we collect the cobwebs from Granny’s ceiling and put them in her coffin, she really loved them so dearly » !  

 

 

Jackie's story:

They were out for the day into the old town of Troy to blow away the cobwebs.         Sophie and her mother.  

 Sophie at ten years old was precocious, and had insisted on wearing her mothers high heeled shoes and had painted her finger nails bright red.    Fire house red as it was called on the bottle.    They had set off to the fair but wearing high heels at the age of 10 hindered their walk on the cobblestones considerably.    

 Her mother, happy to be out after a long depression following the divorce with Sophies father was pulling her daughters hand trying to get to the fair a little faster.   In fact she couldn’t wait to get there as she had been in contact with someone on a dating website and she had sort of said she’d be at the fair on this day.  She had described herself but what she hadn’t mentioned was that she had a daughter.  

 

There he was she was sure,  tall and refined like she had imagined, smart jeans jacket, dark glasses and he was scanning the crowd looking for a lady alone by herself dressed as she had described.    As she was desperate to chat and get to know him she sent Sophie on one of those rides that would shoot her into the sky and send her round and round for quite a while.  

 

It was going well, she liked him, and they seemed to be getting on like a house on fire and were compatible.  He had a sense of humour, seemed kind and gentle and in a short space of time they were laughing and getting on fine

 

Sophie appeared.    Cross that her mother had left her on that machine for such a long time – she tugged at her sleeve and demanded attention.  Mom Mom Mom cotton candy please … 

“You have a daughter” the man astounded asked.    “I don’t like children” he stated his face darkening, evil eyes  hooded now and a frown arched across his forehead.  Sophie yelled back  I don’t like you either and you leave my mother alone she screamed kicking him in the shins and digging those red red nails into his arm causing him to flinch.

 

He went over to the sweet stand.    The pink cloud of sugar wobbled and swayed as he quickly made his way back through the crowd –here you are you little fiend  

and promptly plonked it over the little girls head.    The rose coloured sugary solution covered Sophie from head to toe,  hardened and solidified in a lace like cobweb oozing down her pretty pale green dress,  ran down her legs and stuck to her shoes – ooh ooh   ha ha ….mocked the man you are going to make those creepy crawly spiders jealous     Sophie who had a fear of spiders dating from babyhood  hearing a thousand times “an itsy bitsy spider …..”  launched into another session wailing and screaming punching out and insulted her mother like nothing on earth.   A crowd developed around them all trying to disentangle her from the mess.     

As her mother joined in to peel off the now hardened sticky substance from her daughters clothes she reflected on one hand that you could never be too sure about anyone.     Thanks to her daughter this relationship certainly was not for her and got her out of a sticky web of trouble.

 


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